a night on the town

3/13/09

Getting old.

I went to a 30th Birthday party tonight, a friend i have not seen in about 6 months. it was late when i got there around 9:30 or so when i came to a door. sounds of a party started to make my mind turn to, sex and drinking games.i walked in to see what was up when i was seen by the birthday boy, a "about time" came from his mouth as walk in the door. i wished him a happy B-day as we started walking. i walked behind the birthday boy as we made are way to the living room, where i was looking at what look to be a group of drunks. i was longing to join in with them, start drinking form the keg, no not a half Berlle but a full KEG, of Coolers. there was like some kind of power in the room drawing everyone around it, like pigs to the feed. i was handed a cup as i made my way to the keg. i fulled the cup with the beer said who's up for "Beer Pong." i called out Joe to be my partner as two other girls said they would take us on. they started talking there shit and making up dumb ass rules as girls always do. Joe and i kick their ass and play like a around robin tournament. we just could not lose, 5 games or so in we findley lost. the game started to get old as if i have done this before. I told Joe i was going to go smoke and asked if he wanted one, it was as if i asked everyone to come. we all made are way outside to smoke. it was weird as if something in side me said this was it. this is all i have become in 25 years of life just a drunk ring leader in a pointless party of life. for the first time in a long time i felt alone in it, and not apart of it. i looked at everyone a little different. i could tell the out come of the night, who was going home with who, what guys were high, what girls were drunk. tryed to talk to people but everything they said was like hearing a song over and over again. It was all old news, just the names were different.

i put my beer down and left...